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Yo, seems like either mods removed your post or you did. If it was you, you shouldn't. Never be ashamed of asking any questions regardless of a stranger's response. Sorry if I upset you or make you feel negative in any way. Was not my intent.
I hope you get the issues surrounding that person you were speaking of resolved, in a way that will appease you and your mental health.
Have a photo of a munchkin Scottish fold, on the house. Take care of yourself stranger
They did. Thank you 🫂
Any other answer than professional therapy runs the risk of making it worse. But I know that it can be a luxury.
Out of sight hopefully leads to out of mind eventually. Actively avoiding these a-holes is one thing, having a good emergency plan when it can't be avoided is another. I don't know your life so you have to figure this one out yourself. In my experience, people that have a certain power over you in your mind immediately lose a lot of it if you imagine them naked, tickling the tip of their nose with a feather.
Are you reacting rationally when you're confronted with them? If you can control yourself enough to imagine the nose tickling, start there and see how it goes. If you can't get there and therapy is out of the question look for a fresh start somewhere else. Different part of the city, different city, different time zone. We are conditioned to think we mustn't run from our problems, which isn't bad advice but isn't universally true IMO. There are cases where you're allowed to just move away in the night, secretly flipping the old life off in the process. If after careful consideration going through all the pros and cons you arrive at this conclusion, don't deny yourself this option for dogmatic reasons.
A therapist, after disagreeing with me, would probably add that you should make sure you don't repeat past mistakes by creating new dependent relationships that could lead to new abuse. So keep that thought in the back of your head.
First off: you're not disgusting. Those who do that to other people are.
As the other commentor said: seek therapy as fast as you can. If you can. Everything we say here can potentially make it worse....
Out of mind-out of sight only works superficially and temporarily, if at all, and it will come back anyway, hitting you even harder and making you run (from your thoughts) even faster next time. Yet despite that is keeping a distance to them (And new arseholes!) absolutely imperative! Having witnessed that so many times it makes sad.
I don't know any details about your abuse, but should you ever consider going back, for whatever reason: don't. It happens all the time and it's never ever a good thing.
I wish you all the power to keep away and get better dear random internet stranger.
Thank you!! 🫂
They harassed me, spread rumors about me, dehumanized me, made fun of my weight, tried to get me to hurt and starve myself, tried to get me to have no friends, and tried to get me to suffer. They came up with reasons for these things because of my behaviors which they accused me of stalking them and being weird all because I’m autistic and tried to start a conversation with them.
They also call me loud when I say anything to them. When I ask for clarification, I’m stupid. When I ask them why they’re upset, they tell me to mind my own business, “you stalker!” After a while, I realized this behavior was not at all normal.
Be glad you actually realized it and we even have this chat. And this is beyond bullying, this is top-level-abuse and shows all the usual signs of manipulation and gaslighting. Can't repeat it often enough: keep the fuck out of their reach. forever. Physically at least, mentally they will probably live rent-free in your head for a while longer (but you will learn to make peace with, or, at least, cope with it). It might sound trivial, but one of the simplest and best rules in (social) life is: Keep toxic people out of your life. Period. Even if it's blood. Or especially if it's blood. Make your own family out of friends and soulmates. If you ever have the feeling someone might not be good for you, he most likely isn't. Fuck this person and move on. You're only here once, why waste it with some ass-clowns that don't even care about you?
I'm sorry you had/have to go through all this, noone deserves such treatment. But hey, you made the first step and this is the most important one. Acknowledging there even IS a problem. And you even acted upon it.
And one for the road: Being autistic doesn't make you weird. It, at best, makes you slightly deviate from the baseline of normality. And that's what makes people actually interesting, not boring run-of-the-mill-copycats with no own opinions. But this is just my misanthropic point of view :-)
That seems like severe bullying to me.
Yeah, it’s bullying, but constant and really bad and harmful rather than just rude teasing
From experience: people tend to abuse others and take that for granted. Some will realize they fucked up. Some will try to manipulate you back into the abusive situation. Some will get mad their possession (you) is disobeying them and will try to hurt you.
Hope you can find your way to the peace you deserve.
I've been abused (physically and mentally) by my parents and bullied at school. I can obviously only talk about myself, but maybe my experience helps you.
Understanding, that those people will never care or feel guilt, is hard. Especially when you were abused as a child and hoped for a happy end. Actively trying to get over it also didn't work very well for me. For me the best thing to do was focus on other things: find friends, find hobbies, do whatever you always wanted to do (I started wearing clothes I was forbidden to wear and practicing hobbies that were ridiculed).
Just fill your life with things you like and the bullies and abusers will become smaller and smaller.
Therapy is a good start to help you with this and question yourself, who you are and who you want to be.