Mental Health

First off, stop going out in person to drop your resume at places. Complete waste of money and time. That shit hardly ever worked even 15 years ago. I highly doubt anyone suggesting that to you has actually had to apply for jobs, especially at entry level, anytime this century.

That also cuts out the money spend on food out.

Your best bet for jobs is going off who you know. If friends or family know of job openings where they are and can put a good word in to help push your application through. After that, just apply online. Most places have online systems. Prepare to submit hundreds of applications for single digit response rates, according to numerous posts on reddit's dataisbeautiful sub.

If you need to get out of the house for appearances to your parents, you can probably go to the local library or some study space at your school and do applications from there. Pack food if you do.

Second off, if it is possible for you to pass your summer course at this rate, stop fucking around. You're playing with fire given your Father's previous threat.

If you are not in danger living with him, and he is not inflicting further hurt upon you that you need to escape, then you should maintain that situation for as long as is possible. Part of that is by passing your courses.

It may not be direct money, but it is linked directly to your ability to have a stable place to stay.

Pass this one and then you can worry about changing paths.

If it is no longer possible for you to pass the course, and you have no intention of completing it, then you abandon it. Drop it if you are still in the window that you can.

And I don't mean drop it if you don't think you want to do it. Most courses have sylabus with grade breakdowns that you can use to estimate how much you need to do to pass. You may also be able to email your professor or a class aide.

Your parent's concerns about gifts from your friends can probably be ignored. You should probably want to do your friends kindness in return when you are truly able to but if they are true friends they are not keeping score, and are giving because they are able. I have friends who span a wide variety of income levels and trades, and we all help out each other how and where we can. Giving hand me down stuff that isn't useful to you anymore to a friend that can get more out of it is gratifying in its own right with no "payback" expected or wanted.

That said, you say you "do not ask for specifically". If they are just offering you gifts, you're cool. If you're coercing them into giving you things, not cool.

Moving on from that: My advice is based on my experience entering the job market a little over 10 years ago in the US. Caveat emptor.

I started college at a semi-prestigious, but not really prestigious, university. Computer Science Bachelors (4 year) degree. Flunked out partway through my second year due to depression and not being able to envision myself coding eight hours a day four days a week without going postal.

I tried and failed to get back into it for a few semesters, worked some dead end jobs, then eventually transferred the credits I could to a local community college, got an Associates (two year degree) in Computer Information Systems. Took two years even with the transferred creds because I did a light course load while working shitty unrelated jobs.

Got a paid internship on an internal IT help desk at a non-IT company during the summer before my final semester and made a career from that by moving up through tech departments. Thankfully they were able to work with my schedule the last semester.

Anyway.

If you're struggling in your non-Computer Science classes, it might be worth looking into your University's credit transfer system and seeing if you could maybe take those courses through a cheaper/easier college and transfer them over. Like if you're at a Uni, take them at a community college. Save some money, likely have smaller class size, likely have an easier class, and in my experience have more support available from the school.

Ultimately no college really cares if you fail or pass after they have their money, but smaller schools have less wiggle room in their statistics to just let people fail so they tend to try and work with you a little more.

Computer Science as a degree is a vague crapshoot and the actual course contents widely depend on your University and how their Computer Science faculty see themselves.

Technically, Comp Sci is meant to be less about the practical act of programming, and more about the theory and math behind programming. Kind of like how you can get a degree in Materials Science or Materials Engineering. Comp Sci is usually more theory based, which also tends to mean more math courses required.

This depends on your school though. Some will offer separate Software Development degrees with a focus more on what you'd be doing programming as a job. I've also seen Computer Information Systems, Management Information Systems, Software Engineering, Cyber Security... point is that there are a lot of twists and flavors available on "I'm good with computers and want to do something with them for a living" and even still a decent variety in "I want to program for a living". You may be able to transfer your Computer Science credits to a degree that interests you more.

You may also have options for shorter degrees rather than the four year slog.

I would highly reccomend aiming for a two year degree first before trying to tackle a full four year bachelors. It gives you a natural point where you can stop and re-evaluate. And if you can somehow turn that two year degree into a job, it's a lot easier to go forward from there.

Maybe try a trade. If I could go back in time, I would have never gotten into computers as a career. I would have gone for welding or plumbing. If you can find a union, you can become an apprentice, get training, work as you learn, earn income as well, and as soon as you are allowed, go for your journeyman test which opens up more jobs and higher pay. By the way, a union is only as good as the people that make it up. So if the local sucks, it is because of the people there not truly caring about their brothers and sisters. I was union in constriction (IUOE) but had to go back to computers after I had some major life problems occur. Wish I could go back.

I don't think the poor job market thing is limited to canada. I am getting close to one year unemployment.