PawjamaParty

joined 2 years ago
[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 9 points 1 year ago (1 children)

As a person who has their BPD under control so well that my psychologist doesn't feel fully comfortable diagnosing me with it anymore, seeing stuff about how be need to be avoided still hurts, a lot. I've put in the work, I've never missed an appointment with my current psychologist, I do my best to keep myself stable, and to not hurt others or myself, but I feel like I can never escape this diagnosis. I feel obligated to tell any romantic partners that I have BPD, only for it to be used against me. No matter what I do, I'll always be branded by this, even if I haven't exhibited symptoms for years. I feel like I'll either have to lie to people, or tell them truth and walk on eggshells, afraid that any negative emotion will make them think I'm insane, abusive, or crazy. I just want to live a healthy and happy life.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 9 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Mint ftw!

I've loved mint ever since I first tried it. An OS that actually does what I want it to do. My only complaint with mint is that it works so well that I keep forgetting the console commands and have to look them up when I do need them. Thinking about installing suicide linux on an old laptop and learning the hard way lol.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 9 points 1 year ago

I can only speak for myself, but as a gamer I don't have a lot of complaints with gaming on linux. If most of your games are on steam they should work fine on linux thanks to proton (and steamdeck too). Sure, if you play a lot of multiplayer games where the anti-cheat doesn't tolerate linux, then staying on windows is understandable. Outside of steam, there are other launchers, lutris and heroic, for example.

I'm personally still dual booting, because one game that I played still doesn't work on linux, but as I don't play that game anymore nor have I booted to windows in like 6 months, I might as well get rid of windows once and for all.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 5 points 1 year ago

Pretty much sums up my life rn, and I wish it didn't...

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 13 points 1 year ago

I've returned to reddit a few times, mostly to just get an answer to a question I was trying to look up. But a few days ago I did make a new account, because I was feeling lonely and wanted to try and make new internet friends, and as far as I know, lemmy doesn't yet have those penpal/chat/make friend communities. I had forgotten how ass the new account experience on reddit is, and how ass reddit itself is. I couldn't get the verification email (tho that could have been due to trying to use a temporary email), posts got auto deleted due to account age and low karma, and random email and cookie popups that kept coming back. When one post miraculously did get posted (despite automod telling me it was deleted lol) and I got chat requests, I couldn't even reply to people! I tried accepting the request, but kept getting an error. At this point I'm not sure if it is an actual error, or just reddit restricting new accounts from chatting, even if they are the ones the chat is sent to...

I get that these are used to combat bots, but is it actually working? Mostly it's just hurting people who legitimately want to join and enjoy the site. The karma requirements also bring in their own problems, like subreddits just focused on farming karma so that users can finally take part in the conversations they came for in the first place.

I think people will get tired of the horrible new account creation and experience on reddit and look for alternatives. Lemmy seems to be more privacy orientated and without silly internet points anybody with a new account can immediately jump in on the action without restrictions, for better or worse.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 7 points 1 year ago (1 children)

Yes, because meeting people online is convenient, sometimes more realistic than meeting people irl, and sometimes it's the only viable option to meet people, and because tinder is used pretty much everywhere and by a lot of people, it's a better option than other dating sites/apps.

It's a fucking shit app to finding a life partner due to people leaving their bios empty, and a good number of people looking for short term fun, so finding a long term partner comes down to luck.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 3 points 1 year ago

Of course everybody can learn, but is anyone teaching them? I'm a millennial, I grew up with computers, but I had to learn a lot of things the hard way because it was just expected that we'd somehow become experts without anyone teaching us. We weren't told about cybersecurity, or how to troubleshoot issues, I had to learn all those things by myself. And learning to troubleshoot and other more technical things I only learned because I'm actually interested in computers. Many of my peers aren't, and so don't know even the most basic things.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 5 points 1 year ago (2 children)

Growing up with technology doesn't automatically grant you knowledge of it. Kids that grow up with iPads are capable of using iPads, but sit them in front of a computer and they'll be lost. Being technically literate is more than just being able to install an app from the app store.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 1 points 1 year ago

After feeling like shit for like a week, I finally managed to take a shower and wash my hair. Feeling pretty good! :)

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 2 points 2 years ago

Didn't start out great, but now somehow I'm feeling a bit more hopeful and inspired. I think I'm going to try and do something to make tomorrow a better day.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 4 points 2 years ago

On my second playthrough of the witcher series and on witcher 3 now, and man... I've missed this game! What I didn't miss however was that goddamn leshen in velen. On my first time playing w3 I got massacred by it, this time I remembered roughly where it was, and while on my way to a side quest I did my best to avoid it. Well, I ride around in the forest, trying to remember where it was, I run into it. I see him just in time to stop and wait for him to walk away from me before moving on myself. Unfortunately his wolves noticed me and I had to make a run for it. Managed to get away alive and paused the game to take a little breather and to vent to my roommate. After unpausing the game, the freaking leshen teleported right in front of me! Had to make a run for it again, and wait for it to leave the area so I could continue my quest. Leshens are the truly terrifying monsters in the witcher, and I love their design, just don't love running into them (especially with a high level difference). Still, this has once again made me think about getting a leshen tattoo.

[–] PawjamaParty@lemmy.world 4 points 2 years ago

It's called dyscalculia when it's for numbers or math. I looked at the symptoms list and it doesn't really resonate. I used to count the coins in my piggy bank, and loved to do it, still do actually, and never had any trouble with it. With bigger calculations as well, I didn't have trouble if I could do it in peace, but as soon as there was any amount of pressure on me, I started to struggle. I also would definitely have benefited from a more individual and calm teaching style, and maybe my parents also shouldn't have been so accepting of my poor performance.

I sometimes actually grasped some concepts with ease and faster than some classmates, I remember having no difficulties with some chemistry calculations, while others did. And I also noticed that I really liked physics, math, chemistry, etc. if I was doing well, but often the teachers just couldn't give me the attention I needed, so I just fell off.

Idk if I've come out ok... I've had a lot of trauma in my life which I think lead to some pretty bad mental health issues, and now that those have been somewhat resolved, or rather they've evened out and/or I've learned to live with them, my physical health has started to fail. I finally managed to get a job after years of struggling only to develop a still undiagnosed chronic illness and having to leave the job and left to wonder wtf to do next. I don't think I really have a future, tbh...

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