purplerabbit

I didn't have the language for it, but I knew something was wrong with me and the way I felt in my body and in society as soon as I was six or seven years old. Had I been given the right language to express it back then, I would have known right away, but I guess it wouldn't have been better because, well, there's nothing I would have been able to do about it. I didn't know I was a girl. I just knew I desperately wanted to be one. But I could never say that to anyone.

Still, though, I consider myself a trans kid nonetheless, just because I came out later, in my adult life, doesn't mean that I wasn't. I pretty much knew what I was, there was just no tolerance nor space for me to be it. And, uh, honestly? I deserved better. Much better. Instead, I'll be spending the rest of my life dealing with the consequences of all of this...

If I remember correctly, I had joined at a similar time. Not this account though, this one is fairly new. But I ended up going for Blahaj Zone and Beehaw. I went back and forth between the two, but in the end I think both of these were the right choice. The biggest issue I have with the latter is... It's missing some pretty big federation, like Lemmy.World notably, and that's kind of an issue for me. It makes the "all" timeline really quiet and kind of dull.

In the end, I think Blahaj is my home for many reasons, but I do remember Beehaw being quite recommended back then. It's a great community and I really do enjoy their principles, in terms of rules and everything. When I was looking for what community to join, and people talking about it on Reddit, there was a bunch of, it doesn't really matter, which is bullshit, it actually really does matter, in my opinion, but, uh, yeah. Beehaw came up enough for me to go there on my first account.

As for the drama, I have missed out on all of it. Like, people are talking about Hexbear, I have no idea what happened with that. In terms of drama, all I personally remember was the kind of like big panic over the threadiverse because of the mass influx from Reddit users, which I am on one of but that's pretty much it. That being said, I personally do remember that most people had already some kind of apprehension towards Lemmy.ml. At least in my corner. Lemmygrad I've only learned of recently.

One doesn't need to replace the other.:)

The big problem with matchmaking is that in the long run, it kills game. When people start to move on to a new thing, the population that stays because they're attached to the game gets fucked over by matchmaking.

The less people they are, the worse it works. That's when a server browser and the ability to run community server becomes crucial. It will keep a game alive for a decade after its last update.

Whereas if we built a giant highway... with like 10 lanes... that'd be perfectly quiet!

My point is that we shouldn't even entertain the question in the first place. It doesn't matter if it's natural or not. If it was unnatural, it wouldn't make it any less moral or okay.

It's cute and all but... I really hate that arguement. If it wasn't natural, it wouldn't make it any less moral. We don't need to play by their rhetorical rules. I know that this is just a cute thing, but I see this kind of things all the time and I feel quite strongly about it. So what if I wasn't born this way? So what if it's not natural? Does it somehow make things worse? Or is just an excuse to justify hatred of something that just grosses the 'phobes out?... y'know?

This experience is kind of a rite of passage in growing up, honestly.

Alright, little disclaimer and content warning, I'm gonna talk about some heavy stuff. I'm not going to go into too much details. It should be safe, but know that questions of abuse, violence and sexual assault will be mentioned, not described, though. Should be safe enough, but I would rather warn people. Always remember that you don't need to expose yourself to things that hurt you. ❤️‍🩹

I don't. At all. I have very specific sensorial sensitivities and the way I taste things makes it so that pretty much all alcohol tastes the same. I feel like my taste buds somehow like individualizes the alcohol and that's all I taste. It's weird.

But also, and I guess that's the main thing, I have a traumatic history of alcohol. An abusive parent. I almost lost someone who I was very close with due to how much they drank one night and had to go to a hospital after they fell in a coma because of it. I've been around too many drunk people in my life.

Alcohol is expensive, it's literally poison, and it makes people act in a way that I find very unpredictable and scary. I've been harassed, threatened, borderline assaulted, touched in inappropriate ways, and so on by way too many drunk people. I don't ever want to do that to someone.

I see alcohol as the elephant in the room that no one wants to talk about. I genuinely believe, without a shadow of a doubt, that our cultures would be far better without it.

I think I'm quite judgmental on this issue. I recognize that, but I genuinely don't understand the people who feel the need to have alcohol and to get drunk to have fun. I don't understand the point of going somewhere and just drinking. I don't understand that. I really don't.

Like, I'm going to some kind of like party organized by friends or whatever and I'm like cool we're gonna get there, we're gonna get to sit around, chat, talk about stuff, play around, and just have fun and when I get there I realize oh, it's just an excuse to get drunk with loud ass music, again.

I've been the shepherd puppy for parties in my home organized by someone I live with acouple of times and that was already too many times. It's obnoxious being the only non-drunk person at a party. You feel like you need to babysit everyone because you don't want them to damage your apartment, which has happened! I have probably irreparable damage in a part of my apartment. That's probably going to cost me a lot the day I move out of it.

I've had to kick someone out of my home because the dude was just too drunk, kept sexually harassing people. Intimated me. Said fucked up shit about my then partner to my face. And was like on the verge of like sexually assaulting someone in my home. The victim who was also too drunk out of their mind to even realizing what was happening and even defended him. People treated me like I was crashing the party. Fucking hell. I don't want to ever leave that again.

Fuck alcohol. It's so fucking weird that we have normalized microdosing poison just for the hell of it.

I have honestly completely given up on streaming all together. It's such a hassle. And looking for the thing that you want to watch always ends up the same way. It's on another service that you've never heard of before and don't pay for.

I watch the stuff I want to watch through other means. I don't have enough money to give 15 bucks a month to every asshole who has enough money to hoard movies and TV shows rights.

I don't follow this game at all, nor do I care about Bungie, but everything I've seen and heard about this game sounds like an incoming blunder. I can't see this game succeed at all. But hey, best of luck, I guess.

Yup, can't wait for the next BattleBit Remastered update.

These political parties never learn. It's mind-boggling. How many failures of the Democrats in the U.S. or similar parties do you need to finally understand that trying to cater to the right wing will only validate the far right and alienate whoever is left to vote for you? The more a society shifts to the right, the harder left you must be. Double down!

People go to the far-right out of bigotry, but not just this, they go to them because in the end they always end up being the only ones proposing solutions, saying that they're going to change their lives, whereas the rest of you are just saying, oh, vote for us or otherwise it's gonna be the mean far-right in power, but we're not planning on changing anything.

Capitalism is failing and crumbling all around us. People are begging for something to change. The far right is promising that they will change things, by throwing minorities under the bus, it's a false promise, it's not a solution, it's not gonna change anything, but at least they're saying something, while the rest of you are just... doing nothing. They lie, they cheat, they manipulate everyone, but in the end they're still the only ones saying that they're gonna do something!

There is one minority that deserves to be thrown under the bus and we all know which. It's the wealthiest, the 1%, the billionaires, but all of you are too cowardly to take the fight to them so instead you throw us all to the wolves! You don't care about the people, you don't care about policy, all you care is keeping your fucking seat at the table.

I'm so fucking sick of seeing the same goddamn thing happen again and again and none of these people are taking any lessons from it! No one is coming to save us, that would require them to work and do something for once.