My heart goes out to you.
I’ve had numerous pets and been a care taker for animals most of my life. I’ve lost many over the years. It takes a major toll on the mind and body every time.
This quote is the most true thing I know about grief. I think it’s from a tv show but I originally got it in a card from a relative when my dad died.
“Grief is like a suitcase sitting at the bottom of your bed. Every day, you must carry it with you, without fail. Some days, it feels like it’s filled with rocks. Some days, it feels like it’s light as a feather. That’s how you get through this: when there are more days of feathers than rocks.”
Grieving is not linear. I lost my cat in February to cancer. I saw a picture the other day that made me think of her and I had a cry.
Keep her stuff until you are ready to donate it so her things can live on in another happy doggo.
Try to take care of yourself. At least remember to drink water.
My book club book this time around is “Medusa’s Sisters” by Lauren Bear. It is awful. And boring. And graphic for the sake of being graphic. And I hate it. And book club is gonna get an earful from me.
Outside of that I just started “Well of Ascension” by Brandon Sanderson. I devoured “Mistborn” and can’t wait to get into this one.