Masturbate, back to sleep.

What was I doing in 1995?

I would wake up, pour some Frosted Flakes and play Donkey Kong Country.

What would I do now?

Go outside and take a slow walk through my old neighborhood and probably cry.

Plug in the coax cable and forget the terminator.

Hang out with my grandparents, ask them everything. I miss them.

1995...

I was 10 years old and in the 5th grade.

And I remember everything, huh? Hoo boy. Hoooo boyyyyy.

First thing I do is write this list while it's still fresh in my mind:

1. ADHD is real and it will ruin my potential if I don't face it head on. The medication won't work on me yet, though, so tell Mom and Dad I NEED to get back on medication when my brain is more developed in a couple years.
2. Also, for future reference: it isn't actually a deficit of ATTENTION at all--it's really stupidly named by neurotypicals who don't fucking get it--it's TIME BLINDNESS and a deficit of IMPULSE CONTROL and EXECUTIVE FUNCTION.
3. Sugar is going to make me extremely sick and all my weight and fitness issues come directly from carbohydrate overdose. STOP drinking soda, and avoid refined/homogenized starch!
4. I'm about to enter the most painful and traumatizing stage of my formative years. The middle school I'll be attending starting 6th grade will be hell on earth. I need to keep my FUCKING mouth shut and not talk to ANYONE unless they talk to me. I also need to practice the skill of mindful dissociation and compartmentalization. Stoicism will be my only shelter.
5. Yes the adults around me are morons and don't know what they're talking about, but broken clocks can be right twice a day. In this case, they're correct about homework and studying being important for the wrong reasons: It is NOT about satisfying the expectations of teachers, but rather it is entirely for practicing the skill of internalizing and recalling information. I will not regret time I spend on it.
6. Mom and Dad are struggling financially right now. Dad's racking up debt while Mom is the only reliable source of income. That's why they would "hold onto" my birthday and xmas money "for safekeeping". it is neither kept nor safe; it's gone. All of it. HIDE ANY MONEY I RECEIVE... and tell grandpa to buy stock in Apple.
7. Express early interest in nuclear energy and pursue it with everything I've got. Approach via Mechanical Engineering. I'll enjoy Computer Aided Drafting in High School.
8. Remember the major incidents to come: Columbine and zero tolerance policy in 1999, also dotcom bubble crash, Al Gore will lose in 2000, WTC will be destroyed by a terrorist attack 2001-09-11, Bush Jr administration will cause the housing market to crash as well by 2008, America succumbs to Fascism in 2016, and there will be a global plague in 2020.
9. I'm a furry and I am not actually a boy despite being assigned male at birth. Embrace androgyny. Get online. Find my tribe. Draw a lot.

Open tv’s teletext page 245 (now 235) to see latest NHL results from last night.

Play a Diku or Circle MUD on the local library BBS

I really miss summers without wildfire smoke.

Am I stupid or is this sentence unparseable?

Fire up my PC and hit the dial up to check my email and BBS's.

Take a big shit since I can't shitpost

Log on to BBS, play LORD and post to forums with local users, maybe chat a bit. Fire up sirdoom, waste a few bozos with a BFG. Drive to my buddies house maybe smoke some weed..

The first question is what kind of time loop am I in? Is it a ‘We are all going to die and I need to fix it’ or a ‘I need to grow as a person to get out’ loop. If it’s the first one then I need to figure out when Donald Trump and Jeffery Epstein are both going to be one of his flights to Epstein’s island and find a way to blow up the plane. If it’s the second one I guess do the same thing as that’s got to be good karma.

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Am I a grown adult that wakes up in a foster care home and the child that was there previously is gone?
Do I have to spend the rest of my life without an identity, or clinging to the “delusion” that I was this child that mysteriously disappeared?

Am I a child with 40 years of life experience?
Not long after, When I was 14, my first consensual sexual experience involved an 18-year-old. We got caught, and folks widely regard/regarded her as being inappropriate/in the wrong. Huh. First girlfriend, high school dances/romances. College. Jesus - every relationship basically forever.
If I proceed down the same path, does that mean I’m the creep now?

I buy relevant stocks to make me rich and revel in the fact that there is no internet again. I am 68 and have been there and done that already.

Party like it's 1999!

Use up my turns in Tradewars 2002 on my local BBS and some other door games.

jerk it

Get my SNES or Gameboy and play some Zelda.

Calling friends and talk to them for hours.

Since I am an absolute idiot who doesn't know what happened back then in order to rake in money off of things like betting ( either legal or illegally ), probably just ( assuming I have 'em ) listen to CDs on my CD player and hop on computer and hope I have any good games.