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Jeg laver nok en update næste mandag når jeg skal på biblioteket igen, men baseret på de få Hanekefilm jeg har set, så er jeg ikke et second i tvivl om at du har ret xD

Cache fucker stadig med mig 8 år efter at have set den.

Den der er tålmodig venter sjældent forgæves.

🍿nomnomnom.

Det vil jeg gøre xD jeg håber at min kæreste vil synes om den også. Han har ikke set ret mange Haneke-film (det har jeg heller ikke), men han synes at Funny Games er genial, så who knows x)

Highfive! Det er virkelig flot, især når man tænker på at udendørsterræn altså ikke er lige så nemt at løbe på som et løbebånd!! O.O

Mega flot!! :D hvad var din tid?

Der er Royal Run. Fuldstændig tykt af mennesker. Jeg gik i byen i dag fordi mandag er min biblioteksdag og jeg havde nogle film og en bog jeg skulle aflevere og erstatte med nogle nye. Det var faktisk meget hyggeligt at opleve min by så samlet som den var i dag. Også selvom jeg godt kan få lidt fnat af at være omgivet af mennesker.

Biblioteksbesøget blev til en grafisk roman ved navn Salems Søstre af Thomas Gilbert

Af film blev det:

Det Hvide Bånd - en Michael Haneke-film som jeg har hørt om, men aldrig set. Ved at den er mega flot filmet og eftersigende efterlader seeren frustreret og uforløst, hvilket jo er Haneke's visitkort i alle hans film.

Holy Motors - jeg ved INTET om den film andet end at jeg husker Kyle Kalgren anbefale den, dengang jeg stadig så hans filmreviews og så har jeg altid godt kunnet lide harmonika-scenen. Kom ikke og fortæl mig at den åbningsscene ikke spiller for hårdt xD

Forår, sommer, efterår, vinter - og forår - ved ingenting om denne film, men det ligner sådan en introperspektiv og sanselig asiatisk film om natur så jeg smed den med i stakken fordi jeg tror at den godt kunne være noget for handyret derhjemme. Han er sjov i og med at han er rimelig hardcore mainstream Blockbusters eller sanselige film om naturen og han kan generelt godt lide asiatiske sensibiliteter, så nu satser jeg lige på den her.

Grænse - jeg har hørt om denne film men ved meget lidt om den. Mener at den enten er svensk eller norsk og handler om fabelvæsner, der bliver en del af det moderne samfund og er vist en kommentar på indvandring i Europa osv. Hovedpersonen er en slags trold(???) Der er sikkerhedsvagt ved en grænsekontrol. Det er det eneste jeg ved. Jeg synes bare den lyder ret grineren og jeg ved bare at min kæreste vil sidde og sige "wtf" 100 gange når jeg sætter den på en af dagene.

00erne - en dvd med fire udvalgte film fra 00erne: Mystic River, The Hangover, I Am Legend og the Departed. Valgte den fordi den er lidt en snyder med de mange film i én, men ville gerne sikre mig at der også var noget lidt mere mainstream imellem så min kæreste ikke går helt i baglås i løbet af ugen.

Af den forrige stak film var min top 5 The Father, Drengen med Cyklen, Fitzcarraldo, Beasts of the Southern Wild og Burn After Reading.

For min kæreste var hans top 5 The Father, Burn After Reading, Drengen med Cyklen, Beasts of the Southern Wild og Fitzcarraldo.

"Jeg kunne ikke så godt lide junglefilmen. Det var noget underligt noget," sagde han. ❤️

The Father var i øvrigt fuldstændig hjerteskærende. Jeg har ikke stortudet til en film på den måde i mere end 10 år. Jeg er stadig ked af det når jeg tænker på den. Fuck demens, mand. Fuck det pis så hårdt. Hold kæft jeg græd.

I love that clip so much. It will never not be funny af to me.

Nah, I'm good. My comment wasn't meant to be this sad woe is me rant. It was a critique of the meme since I did have friendships like that in my youth and just like in Friends, my friendgroup(s) split up when that period of our lives ended and we went on to start our adult lives.

It is a completely normal part of life. I don't see it as a terrible thing.

I think the impermanence of life is one of the most difficult things to accept, but once you do, there is some beauty to it too.

I think it is or at least should be one of the biggest motivators to try and live in the now. I have been the most happy, when I try to live in the now and appreciate what I have right now. It takes a bit of practice but it is doable and it a great antidote to anxiety and depressive thoughts in my experience. You cannot live in the now all the time, but aiming toward it, is a good way to spend the limited time you have in this life.

Big hugs to you.

First of all, I'm truly sorry that you have had this experience. It hurts my soul that you, from the age of 9 have felt that life isn't worth living. I do hope you have had good moments too and life hasn't been all misery for you because fuck. That isn't how it should be for anyone!

As for myself, I will say that I do not have an official diagnosis, but display MANY ADHD symptoms, just in the more inward sort of way.

So for me, growing up, I was pretty good at being sort of invisible in school so i was never really yelled at, but i did get bullied a lot and i was projected to have a very low IQ by a couple of teachers which has stuck with me my whole life. I did experience a lot of rejection too both from peers but also from one of my parents. Later in life I have realized that almost everything about me that was rejected by others had to do with my symptoms.

I did think I would have kids someday, but I didn't want kids until I had a reasonable income and a house and neither ever happened to me. I also didn't want kids until I was mentally mature enough for it and that never happened either.

I love children and I'm really good with kids, but I will never be a mother. I cannot do that to them.

I can't give them a home nor financial stability and I cannot promise that will be a good parent either.

I am extremely scared of the idea of becoming a parent and then turning out to be a monster to my kid.

I don't want to be selfish. My self worth is in the dumpster when it comes to believing i would ever be good enough to be a parent. People used to not understand it. Sometimes they still don't.

But it is what it is. I'm not going to fuck up somebody else's childhood. Instead I can be an aunt to other people's kids and be useful that way. I think that is better.

Yeah, I think those memories are to be cherished. Your apartment setup back then genuinely sounds like a setup for a wholesome sitcom xD

It's stuff like that, that makes me have very few regret from my 20s because I full on just wanted to make friends and throw myself into a bunch of scenarios with them while I had the chance and was still young.

When I hit 30, I was like "I'm ready to move forward".

Still miss it sometimes. That closeness and the goofy shit we got up to sometimes. Also just the hanging out on those lazy evenings. Good times ❤️