I do a lot of risky and dangerous shit on the internet.
well.. this seems to be the bigger issue. I'm not going to tell you what to do, but if it ain't worth it, then it ain't worth it. That seems to be what you are telling yourself.
If you're ready to cut bait, then you just need to drop every connection that existed during that period. And start anew putting a solid line between before and now. Be the ringpop you want to be and act like old ringpop never happened. I suspect that guilt might be playing a part in your angst as well. The only way to fix that is to be a better man.
Yes... and if it needs to be said, I am also directly implying that anonymity is a large and crucial part of privacy.